I am a patient person. I really am. However, every person has their limits and I am reaching mine. I understand that my husband has borderline personality disorder. I understand that the condition turns him into a raging asshole at times. However, even if his actions and his attitude are not all his fault, I am only able to put up with so much.

Nothing I say or do is right when he gets in these moods. It’s his way or no way, and I now see why every single woman he has ever known has gotten fed up with his shit. Don’t get me wrong, his ex-wife is still a worthless piece of crap and will be until she learns how to be a real parent, but there is no doubt in my mind about why she left him. It would be hard for Mother Theresa to put up with this man’s attitude and mood swings. I am by no means anywhere near the patient person that Mother Theresa was.

So what will be the outcome? Honestly, I am just taking it one day at a time because I know that I am going to make some necessary changes soon. I refuse to be anyone’s doormat. I will keep you all updated when those changes are made, in the meantime I will just keep praying and meditating and keeping my temper in check so I don’t end up losing my mind.

Borderline personality disorder is not a pretty condition. A word of advice for those who deal with spouses or significant others who have it — those people will never, ever change unless they want to. No amount of love, understanding or consideration will cure them. They have to want to be better. If they don’t, they will never stop their abusive and manipulative behaviors. I have learned that the hard way.

  1. Maggie says:

    You are absolutely right! I have borderline personality disorder myself, and I realize there’s lots of things I need to work on. The bottom line is, like you said, wanting to change and actually doing something about it instead of talking and promising and whatnot.

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