And One More Thing…

Posted: November 23, 2012 in Borderline Personality Disorder

Okay, after taking 2 Vicodin, a gabapentin, 2 soma and an ibuprofen my pain is finally tolerable. If I don’t move. Mr. BPD notices I’m not in tears anymore and asks how long company had been here before he woke up and came downstairs. I told him about an hour. He then proceeds to tell me that I didn’t wake him up on purpose to make him look bad. I’m sorry. If you’re an asshole I’m not going to hide it from the world and pretend its all peachy. But again, I’m the one to blame for the fact he looked like a lazy dick. What the fuck ever.

Comments
  1. heather says:

    what an amazing piece of shit

  2. M says:

    sadly he won’t, he won’t “pay’ for it, he won’t suffer any pain – let’s get real, we want “karma” to be our revenge, but it won’t – he is a master manipulator and he can detach very quickly…he will just move on to the next women and skip off into the sunset while you spend countless hours tormenting yourself over all the crap he has projected and mirrored back on to you… trust me..
    whatever your reason’s are for staying – don’t – nothing and i mean nothing is worth the pain you have yet to experience – even when he’s gone and loving someone new, he will still torment you, your thoughts, your self worth, your soul…..
    M

    • princessjd says:

      I really wish I could leave. I wish it were that simple. The problem is complicated and I can’t write about it in a public forum. Let’s just say that I have family members who would disown me if I did (because he has kissed their asses and shown him only their best side) so they think I’m a raving lunatic when I discuss his issues with them. They want to know what “i” am doing wrong. And if these family members disown me my financial situation will become very difficult. I will have to sell my house, which will mean moving my kids out of this neighborhood. I can’t do that to them. Like I said, it’s a very long story but I can’t explain it all.

      • Aaron says:

        Yeah.. that’s the standard BPD tactic.. brown-nose EVERYONE so that they think that you’re the crazy one. I’ve been through the same thing with a couple girlfriends.

  3. M says:

    I get that, no worries to explain, we all stay for different reasons… If you want to catch him at his own game, pay very close attention to his projections – everything he accusess you of, he is doing….
    The longer you stay in the relationship, you and your children WILL suffer, long after he is gone.
    Keep posting please, you really have been the turning point for me with removing those rose colored glasses.. Today i am taking back my self esteem and my life 🙂
    M

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